reversehaven

harshness and reality of life..
:Friday, May 06, 2005:

Well, I was doing my job as usual today,... running errands, sending covers and other urgent confidential documents to various companies around tanjong pagar area, and I was feeling so hungry.. Well, I was debating whether or not to get a snickers to like, keep me going.. However, keeping in mind tht I have a tight budget, I decided against it.

Having taken my very first job, I realised and experienced so many things that could probably never been experienced in school life. This hunger almost drove me crazy. Now that i'm to manage my own finances, I have to control my diet.. much as I wanna eat and get fat, I can't, cuz I have to watch my expenses. Those of you out there who can get fat, count yourselves lucky. i'm still skinny as a rake, no matter how much I try. Well, there was a buffet here today, cuz a new company was getting listed, so I really ate my fill. I was SOOOO hungry. well, I felt satisfied and sleepy after that.. HArghs.. whatever..

But i'm still feeling inferior to her.. so unworthy of her... I mean... she's right now studyign.. studying complex mathematics and arcane sciences... while me? i'm stuck here.. doing odd jobs.. I get paid... peanuts. whatever. it's a lot to me now, since i'm not paying for my water bills and all that... i just need to pay for my own transport and lunch.. tht's it... Still, this is peanuts...This is the market price of an O level or A level cert. $10 per hour is perhaps the most you can get, which is super rare. I'm only getting about 3/4 of that.. and that is considered high already.. whatever..

well, i can't wait to be put back into school.. at least i'm studying something. I hope to be able to find a friend whom I can really be good friends with. Hmm.. someone like en hua... hmm.. any mechanical engineers in debate club? hmm...

I'm 'skiving' at work, taking a lil' bit of time off to type my blog entry,.. nothing much here.. it's just work.. ANyway, I can't like, go around taking pics cuz lotsa the stuff here is confidential ... (they are building a new nuclear warhead here, you know..? ) yeah right they are...

hmm. Well, tomorrow is saturday.. Cool.. I can slack at home in th morning.. Or actually im yearning for a game of badminton.. I hope I can organise such a game sometime.. the june hols perhaps?.. Somethign makes me regret not staying in JJ.. If i stayed in JJ.. I would get a lot of CCA points because of band and shooting.. I possibly would be able to get access to the CDans shooting range cheaply, forlife... then I can take part in the hosting of hte pre-U seminar.. since this job was given over to the debators right from the start... If I stayed in JJ... I could have gotten my dream subject combination.. If I stayed in JJ, I could have been able to go to church camp (lets hope this special someone doesn't get to go either.. or i'm sooooo gonna be jealous...ok..grow up... *smacks myself on the face* [haa.. who cares.. i have a forehead protector.. smack all you like..])

SIancity.. Well, speaking about badminton.. about sports.. we haven't played capt's ball as a YF for quite some time.. I mean, the last outing on mayday(monday) we got a chance.. but most of the senior ones left. I was perhaps the oldest one there playing capt's ball.. I left not too long later... after they decided to play soccer instead.. I wanna organise a game of capt's ball sometime.. perhaps before YF... after the exams.. well, if hte response is good enuf, then that's really cool...

Sian.. well, im going to knock off soon.. another half an hour or so..

The reversehaven spoke at 5:34 PM