must be dreaming
:Wednesday, January 02, 2008:
it feels like I could just reach accross eternity in the blink of an eye, and stretch out my fingers and touch the tips of perfection
and yet it feels like I have fallen down to the depths of destruction
life moves so quickly around me, time zips past me, everyone's speaking too fast
i try to run, I can't. My muscles ache, I push. I push hard, i pant, i've lost my breath. Suddenly, I slip, and I fall. I hit the ground, and bounce up into the air, and again I hit the ground.
the gold right before me, I stretch out my hands to reach it, I struggle to my feet........ I stretch out somemore........................
I must be dreaming. my life's a dream. I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock, and as what i've done for the past three months, grab the windowsill and drag myself monotonously out of bed, one hour late for class.
it's just five more weeks. five more weeks. I'll wipe my sweat, i'll shed my blood, but i'll GRADUATE!.
The reversehaven spoke at 11:57 PM
withdrawn!
:Tuesday, January 01, 2008:
Just withdrew my project from spinnovex. I suddenly feel a slight sense of regret. I can't help feeling that i'm missing out on a grade they could have given us, but it's not like we could help it either.
the pressure to finish the project by this week is gone, but lo and behold, we still have to finish the project somehow. by march. That's not too tough, considering the fact that we only have three things left to get done. the first is to whoop Dr Wang's ass and get him to give us the controller. the second is to fix it up. easy as pie. but the third thing is something we've been worrying about the past month. How to OUTPUT THE DATA BITS.
I sure as hell hope this doesn't eat into the precious one month I have left to train for the trials.. All my potential competitors will have that same one month (if not more) to train for the trials. For me to be superior to them, I need, apart from a superior training programme... i still need enough time.
never a dull moment in life. I guess i'll put my trust in God and see how this works out. I still hope to finish my project in this five weeks, slug the thing out and get it over with.
The reversehaven spoke at 7:33 PM
