Naive.

My dad is being the most naive. He thinks he's being the perfect dad now. Little does he know how irritating he can get.

When I wanted, yearned, looked for, sought for fatherly love. How little I received of it. Many a tearful night I spent.. because I just couldn't feel any love from him. Now he thinks he's being the perfect dad by restricting my net access, by calling my friends evil, by stopping me from socialing with them at all costs. Naive.

I had no one to run to. I couldn't run to you. I could only run to my mum then. I didn't even have friends to run to. No. Now? Now I've got friends to run to. I've got mum to run to. I always yearned for a dad to run to. yuan lai... this is what having a father to run to actually means. Then I don't want it.

Everything he tells me now... assumes that i'm a three-year old kid. Assumes i'm still that ignorant, impressionable little child. not anymore, dad. I'm grown up. So much more I know, sometimes even more than you. And what?! you're trying to teach me things I already know? do you know how jarring to hte ear it can be if it's something I already know and yet is repeated many times?! When I would most appreciate father's love, he never gave it. Or at least, not sufficiently. When I would least appreciate it, he gave it in bulks. Whether in the right quality or not, that's another story.

Sheesh.


Well, I don't mean to be talking bad about my dad like that. I just.. need a letout. i feel pretty much better after typing this here.

Now playing:Radical Dreamers~Nusumenai Houseki

Me
Name: Clement Low
Birthday: if you can guess, you deserve to know.
Country: Singapore
Height: 1.73
Weight: 60 trying to get on 70
CURRENTLY A SLAVE OF THE SAF.

Wishlist Haven
1)guitar
2)spotting scope
3)new x-10s...
4)waterproof footwear
5)new skates (WAITING FOR CLARICE TO GO SKATE SHOPPING WITH ME
6)Hoyt Helix

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